This past week has been a whirlwind.
We had our home study visit and our individual interviews,
yes both in one week, separate days .
What's next?
We wait for our social worker to write up our home study
"should take two weeks max", send off our I600A then we will start our
dossier.
Maybe I am alone in this, but I have to admit our preparation
for our home study visit was stressful. Many of our friends who have already walked
through this part of the process said " we had nothing to worry
about." (friends that have not only
walked down this road before, but ones who have loved , supported, cheered on, and prayed us through our adoption journey.
<3) We cleaned until our bones ached, organized, folded, cleaned
out cabinets', changed out smoke detectors, lined shelves and I'm sure I am
leaving a lot out . I analyzed in my head every possible question I might be
asked and I didn't sleep a wink the night before.
Our friends were right, but I am so glad I folded every
towel and matched every pair of socks, and scrubbed with a tooth brush to get every
corner of our home clean because our
social worker took a full tour of the house, the back yard and even looked in
some cabinets. ha!
After our one on one interviews
(first me then Dave) we headed off on a little family get away. Our agency puts
on a reunion every year for families who have adopted from the DRC and any
families who are on the waiting list (that's us) are welcome to attend in order
to get a chance to know the faces behind all the phone calls and e-mails, and
to meet the lovely families who have already walked in our shoes of course.
Pretty great, right?
It was a piece of
heaven to see all the families bonded together and to see the amount of joy
these beautiful children carry with them.
My oldest daughter met her "best friend" that day
and they played every moment they could squeeze in together. This was also a
time for our children to see a different culture, let me just say this culture
is so beautiful, these little ones were dancing and singing,
smiling and laughing.
smiling and laughing.
Heart melted......
I am so grateful and
blessed to have been able to attend this lovely gathering,
So many stories, good and even sad, I won't go into detail but by the end of the
second day my heavy heart brought about fear and the "what if's."
Reality?
adoption, it can be messy.
Remember ....... When I spoke about open hands?
I decide to take a little walk. As I was walking along underneath the big green trees one
of my dear friends came along side me and she said " this is your story and
God is the author of your story,"
She is right.
Our adoption story is its own. However my Father chooses to
right it.
I have come to
realize how much I want certainty
through this messy but beautiful life I live.
Truth?
He is my only promise, my only certainty.
I read a little book called Jesus Calling by: Sarah Young
almost daily, it has little words of encouragement that are inspired by
scripture from the B.I.B.L.E this one
was perfect for me that day and I hope it can be of some encouragement to you
as well.
" I am a mighty God. Nothing is too difficult for me. I
have chosen to use weak ones like you to accomplish My purpose. Your weakness
is designed to open you to my power.
Therefore, do not fear your limitations or measure the day's demands against
your strength. What I require of you is to stay close to Me, living in trusting
dependence on My limitless resources. When you face unexpected demands, there
is no need to panic. Remember that I am with you. Talk to me and listen while I
talk you through each challenging situation. I am not a careless God. When I
allow difficulties to come into your life, I equip you fully to handle them,
relax in my presence, trusting in my strength."
I'm choosing to remember
the good, the bad, the tough parts and even the sad parts, knowing that my
Father is the author and in the end it all is worked out for the good.
Luke 1:27 Cor. 12:9
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