Thursday, June 27, 2013

Remember









This past week has been a whirlwind.


We had our home study visit and our individual interviews, yes both in one week, separate days .
What's next?
We wait for our social worker to write up our home study "should take two weeks max", send off our I600A then we will start our dossier.
Maybe I am alone in this, but I have to admit our preparation for our home study visit was stressful. Many of our friends who have already walked through this part of the process said " we had nothing to worry about."  (friends that have not only walked down this road before, but ones who have loved , supported, cheered on,  and prayed us through our adoption journey. <3)  We cleaned  until our bones ached, organized, folded, cleaned out cabinets', changed out smoke detectors, lined shelves and I'm sure I am leaving a lot out . I analyzed in my head every possible question I might be asked and I didn't sleep a wink the night before.
Our friends were right, but I am so glad I folded every towel  and matched every pair of socks,  and scrubbed with a tooth brush to get every corner of our home clean  because our social worker took a full tour of the house, the back yard and even looked in some cabinets. ha!  

 
After our one on one interviews (first me then Dave) we headed off on a little family get away. Our agency puts on a reunion every year for families who have adopted from the DRC and any families who are on the waiting list (that's us) are welcome to attend in order to get a chance to know the faces behind all the phone calls and e-mails, and to meet the lovely families who have already walked in our shoes of course.

Pretty great, right?
 It was a piece of heaven to see all the families bonded together and to see the amount of joy these beautiful children carry with them.  
My oldest daughter met her "best friend" that day and they played every moment they could squeeze in together. This was also a time for our children to see a different culture, let me just say this culture is so beautiful, these little ones were dancing and singing,
smiling and laughing.



When it was time to leave after our first night of events our next to littlest said " are all those kids with chocolate skin adopted ?  Me- "yes" ( big smile) she then said " we should adopt one like that mom, one with chocolate skin."


Heart melted......      
 I am so grateful and blessed to have been able to attend this lovely gathering,
So many stories, good and even sad,  I won't go into detail but by the end of the second day my heavy heart brought about fear and the "what if's."    
Reality?
adoption, it can be messy.
Remember ....... When I spoke about open hands?
I decide to take a little walk. As I  was walking along underneath  the big green  trees  one of my dear friends came along side me and she said " this is your story and God is the author of your story,"

She is right.
Our adoption story is its own. However my Father chooses to right it.
 I have come to realize how much I want certainty  through this messy but beautiful life I live. 
Truth?
He is my only promise, my only certainty.
I read a little book called Jesus Calling by: Sarah Young almost daily, it has little words of encouragement that are inspired by scripture from the B.I.B.L.E  this one was perfect for me that day and I hope it can be of some encouragement to you as well.
" I am a mighty God. Nothing is too difficult for me. I have chosen to use weak ones like you to accomplish My purpose. Your weakness is designed to open you to my power. Therefore, do not fear your limitations or measure the day's demands against your strength. What I require of you is to stay close to Me, living in trusting dependence on My limitless resources. When you face unexpected demands, there is no need to panic. Remember that I am with you. Talk to me and listen while I talk you through each challenging situation. I am not a careless God. When I allow difficulties to come into your life, I equip you fully to handle them, relax in my presence, trusting in my strength."
 I'm choosing to remember the good, the bad, the tough parts and even the sad parts, knowing that my Father is the author and in the end it all is worked out for the good.     
Luke 1:27 Cor. 12:9